July 23, 2009

b comes home!!=best.day.ever.

 (here you are with three of your aunts at HOME! they made you that awesome poster too!)


Bronze,
Today was even better than the day you were born. Today we took you home. To our home. 
To be a little family. It was so weird driving in the car with you for the first time, Dad drove so slowly and I was a nervous wreck the whole time. I wanted to open the window and scream, "Hey! We've got some uber precious cargo on board so back off!" to all the other drivers. We went through the drive thru at Arby's on the way and had our very first little family date. 
The first of many. Welcome home, we're so glad to have you!!
Love, Mom+Dad

July 20, 2009

he's in the hospital. and I want him to come home.


It's unbelievably weird to go to the hospital pregnant and then leave without a baby. That's what we've been doing for the past few days since B was born. They decided he needed to stay in the NICU for a 7 day course of antibiotics (maybe he has pneumonia?) so we've been coming and going each day to be with him, sleep, and pack for the move next week. Pumping has been real fun let me tell you. Not being able to hold him for the first three days was another fun thing. Nope, nothing is fun about any of this. But now we're grown ups and we have to deal with things we don't love because they're what's best for our boy. I keep wishing the doctors will just say, "He seems perfect today! Take him home. NOW!" It breaks my heart to leave him in that little box at the end of each day. I never, never, never thought it would feel like this to be a mom. Constant worry, crying all the time, complete exhaustion; he's worth it but it's so hard.


July 16, 2009

we're so pleased to introduce:


Our perfect, amazing, adorable little boy was born finally! The first words I said after he arrived were, "I did it!!!" and "Never again!"  Holy cow, labor is exhausting and awesome. Toph was the best coach ever. He fanned me for like three hours since I was burning up (even though everyone else in the room was freezing, the lady in labor chooses the AC temp. that's the rule.), prayed for me, gave me several blessings, talked to the doctors and nurses for me and supported me in my natural birth plan. I made it too! The whole thing was just over 20 hours and most of that was pitocin induced. (I hated the pitocin!!) After 2 hours of pushing, B arrived on the scene and we all forgot about the longest day ever. Bronson is seriously the clone of Toph. When they put baby B on my chest and he looked up at me it was so surreal, they look so much alike. We're officially a family and I am so stinking happy. I love my boys. And I love that I can say that now: boys. Plural. AND: I'm not pregnant anymore!!!! This is an excellent day. I even got a milkshake. 

July 12, 2009

STILL preggo


(30 weeks. I haven't taken any pics in a while. I'm DONE.)

Hey kid,
You can come out now. Gma's here and I'm so ready to meet you+not be pregnant anymore+
get my body back. Any day. Seriously. Except maybe you could just come out all nice and quick and while I'm asleep? Then I could just wake up and you'd be there and we could skip the whole "Holy crap!!! This hurts!!!" labor thing? Your call. Either way:
JUST COME NOW!!!!
Love, Mom